Be Well With El

Mom, Wife, Runner and Business Partner regaining her life back

Running motivation

Today I thought I might give you a little idea of what my runs feel like. When I started running I was 220lbs and I hated every minute of it. It sucked. I was easily motivated by the small the progress I was making every week. Every week I would run a little longer and it felt amazing. There just came this point where I wanted to run. I would get antsy just thinking about running. Dont get me wrong there are still days that I hate it but the feeling at the end of my run is indescribable. I have had the same playlist since the beginning…. I know LAME. I never remember to download more music. lol Each song has a different meaning to me. I love Carrie Underwood’s Undo it!! Here is a little look at what goes through my mind while running and listening to this song…..

“Undo It”
(I sing this song to the fat girl inside me)

I should have known by the way you passed me by
There was something in your eyes and it wasn’t right
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I should have walked, but I never had the chance
Everything got out of hand and I let it slide

Now I only have myself to blame

(so true. I have control over my lifestyle)
For falling for your stupid games
I wish my life could be
The way it was before I saw your face

You stole my happy, you made me cry
Took the lonely and took me for a ride
And I wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo it
You had my heart, now I want it back
I’m starting to see everything you lack
 FAT you blew it, you put me through it
I wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo it

(I start to literally clap it up in my head)
Na, na, na-na, na
Na, na, na-na, na
Na, na, na-na, na, na

Now your photos don’t have a picture frame
And I never say your name and I never will

And all your things, well I threw them in the trash NoChocolate<
And I’m not even sad

Now you only have yourself to blame
For playing all those stupid games
You’re always gonna be the same
And, oh no, you’ll never change

You stole my happy, you made me cry
Took the lonely and took me for a ride
And I wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo it
You had my heart, now I want it back
I’m starting to see everything you lack
FAT you blew it, you put me through it
I wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo it

Na, na, na-na, na
Na, na, na-na, na
Na, na, na-na, na, na

You want my future, you can’t have it

( I can image an older, larger me during this part of the song)
I’m still trying to erase you from my past
I need you gone so fast

You stole my happy, you made me cry
Took the lonely and took me for a ride
And I wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo it
You had my heart, now I want it back
I’m starting to see everything you lack
FAT you blew it, you put me through it
I wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo it

You stole my happy, you made me cry
Took the lonely and took me for a ride

FAT you blew it, you put me through it
I wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo it

There it is. Now you all know the very simple inner workings of my brain! Recap = I want to undo my love for cake…LOL
T4R

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Results are in.

7 day cleanse complete. 7 days without coffee. 7 days without white flour. 7 days without white sugar. 7 days of hell….LOL. I was definitely uncomfortable for 7 days. There were a lot of drastic changes I made but I can see the light now. My skin has cleared up. (I am still doing the same routine I have been doing for a year.) I wore Italy Jeans this weekend and yes I weighed myself this morning…. Drum Roll please……. I am down 6lbs in one week. This makes for a 30lb weight loss so far. Wooooo HOOO!!! I thought I was eating well before but I really was doing far less than I should. Now I know what to avoid and have a little more self control.

Here comes the tricky part. Where do you go from here? I don’t want to introduce foods that are gonna make me gain it all back so for today I will just be adding my coffee and be happy with that. My plan is to eat clean when I can. I will still use the almond milk and almond butter on a regular basis and really limit my dairy. I will continue to look for and make clean healthy dinners. I will be adding my whey protein to my shakes every morning. I will probably go back to calorie counting to keep track of my portion sizes. All in all trying to keep up with what I have done in the past week. Yes I was uncomfortable but you have to get uncomfortable to change.

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T4R

P.S. Speaking of uncomfortable, I might have taken a pole class last night. I was absolutely the heaviest girl there. So what. It was a lot of fun and I would do it again in a heart beat.

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Weekend progress!!

This weekend was packed with to do lists and fun. Saturday I headed off to the salon to get my hair did!!! if you live in the area you should absolutely check out my sister-in-laws salon, Mam’Zelle on Woodbourne Road in Levittown. They have a fab new look and do an amazing job.

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The during picture is always the best.

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All done…. See an amazing job. I love the new do! Thank you Rachel!

After my hair cut I ran to produce junction with my friend. That place was a mad house.

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I understand why this place was so crazy. I got so many fruits and veggies for only $22. I absolutely will make that a regular trip from now on. We also stopped at target and big bear. Kinda annoyed with the multiple trips that we had to make but my friend politely reminded me that “If you want to live this lifestyle you are gonna have to make multiple trips” Ok OK Maybe I was being a two year old again.( this happens more often than i thought)

Sunday was definitely  FUNday! We had an Easter egg hunt at my parents house.

When I woke up I went for a run.

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The after run photo is up there with the during your hair appointment photo, probably in the top 3 photos you should take of yourself. Give em a try!!

Anyways, I like to run on days that we are going to a party/gathering. When I start my day with a run I am more likely to make healthy decisions throughout the day. This party was going to be a challenge though. When I started the cleanse I knew I would have to deal with this. I usually shove my face the whole time at a party and desserts are my down fall. I am never able to stop once I get started. I have no self control. As soon as I walk into my parents house I said to myself ” F* this cleanse, Just eat girl”

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But I didn’t. I walked in with my greens, nuts and Clean brownies. I snack on the nuts and ate my salad as my meal. Once the dessert came around that was a lil tougher but I did not touch a thing. I ate my extremely dry  “clean” brownies which i thought were delicious because I haven’t eaten anything like it in a week. My sister almost chocked on one and Kaine spit his out!!! Lol

Honestly, the extreme urge I had to eat everything went away after 30 minutes or so. I am hoping in time I will learn how to control my sudden urges and really know when I am hungry and when I am just being a food crazed woman.

Today is my last day on the cleanse. Post will be up tomorrow on results and whats next. Until then I will leave you with this picture from the egg hunt.

Isn’t she so cute? Baby doll and purse with her at all times.

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T4R

 

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Cleansing it and it feels so good.

That title might be a little misleading. I felt quite lethargic the last couple of days and extremely grumpy because I want Coffeeeeee!!!! (I feel like my two year old throwing a hissy fit when I talk about it.) The green tea is good but just not the same. My meals have been pretty bland because I am still experimenting with my spices. Ran out of fruit two days in and won’t be able to get more until tomorrow. I’m going to try Produce Junction in Bensalem tomorrow and get bulk produce. Fingers crossed that it lasts me a whole week because “ain’t nobody got time for that” twice a week shopping crap!

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Thank you Marissa for the words of wisdom!!! I am feeling much better today. Just got back from a 3 mile walk/run (keeping it lite) and I actually feel amazing. When I got back from my run I found this in the mailbox.

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Just another friendly reminder that summer is coming!!! Oh the dreaded bathing suit, I hope to wear you with pride this summer!!!

I have learned a few things thus far. I know i like the 5 smaller meals because it keeps me from picking all day. I also have a lot of emotional issues with food. I keep talking myself out of making bad decisions. I keep saying “but how bad could fat free sour cream or my whey protein drink be” I just want my mind to shut up and just do it. You said no dairy for a week so do it and stop trying to bargain with yourself. geeeezzzz I need Jillian Michaels in my ear at all times.

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I NEED TO EAT LIKE SHE IS WATCHING!!!

In conclusion, I was grumpy but I am feeling much better. I am learning a few things and I f*cking love Jillian!!! LOL

 

T4R

 

P.S. Have a hair appointment tomorrow. What does everyone think of this?

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Oh btw it doesn’t matter really because I Will Do What I Want!!! (OK another two year old moment)

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Wellness Wednesday: Day one of Cleanse complete

Day one down and I am still alive. The day went pretty smoothly. I had my shake for breakfast which had strawberries, banannas, almond milk and ice in it. Had a hummus snack.

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No I did not eat all that hummus. Just was too lazy to take it out of the container. This was very yummy as well. For lunch I made a salad with spinach leaves, tuna, sunflower seeds, avacado, cucumbers and a no calorie, no carbs, no sugar dressing…..It was soooooo good! I will be using this dressing forever now.

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 Dressing is called Walden farms and I found it at Pathmark.  After lunch the sun came out so I took the kids for a walk. I usually am ready to pull out my hair after our walks but this one wasn’t that bad.

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That stroller is so hard to maneuver, I would consider our 40 minute walk a lil more than a lite workout but that is ok! A little more excerise isn’t gonna hurt anything. My arms hurt today from pushing that thing. After our walk I snacked on some unsalted nuts. Than had dinner around 630. We had brown rice, shrimp and broccoli for dinner. Kids barely ate 😦 and Pat ate out! LoL ……Finished my night with a fiber drink before bed! All in all very good. I totally forgot to take my vitamins 😦 ooooppppssss Well today is another day. Day 2 here we go.

T4R

P.s. Had a good friend find a great produce store where you can buy a shit load of produce for cheap. Gonna try it out this weekend. Thanks Katie

OOOO hhhh and I am a firm believer that you should only weigh yourself once a week but since today is weigh in day, I jumped on the scale and this is what i saw 193.5 …… Me Likey

 

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Cleanse

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This is the print out that Pat came home with last night. Lol….Poor guy has another thing coming. Today I start my clean eating cleanse. My goals for this cleanse is to help me break my junk food habit and kick-start a healthy relationship with food. There is not just one plan I am following. I took advice from Dr Oz clean detox manual and the Advocare cleanse. I plan on starting with one week of eating clean. Here is the plan I am following

1. Fiber drink and vitamins

2. eat 3 meals and 1-2 snacks

     a. What you are allowed to eat : whole veggies, leafy greens, brown rice, non gluten grains, stevia, green tea, apple cider vinegar, wild fish, organic chicken or turkey, whole fruits, berries, nuts, seeds, cocunut oil and plant based protein powder.

      b. make sure you are getting 50-80 grams of protein a day.

       c. no calorie limit

 3. Drink lots of water and green tea. (NO coffee, wtf am i doing)

4. Workouts should be lite.

5. Leave 12 hours between your last meal of the day and your first meal of the next day (ex: 7pm-7am)

So there it is! I went grocery shopping spent $186 (arrrghhhh) and got all my fruits and veggies.

 

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Holy greens Batman!!!

I have been using the website http://www.thegraciouspantry.com/ to look up recipes and of course Pinterest has some great ideas. I believe my biggest challenge is gonna be making sure everyone in my family is fed and happy. I am hoping they will eat some of my clean stuff but you never know with kids.

I wasn’t able to take my inches but my starting weight is 196. Time to make my morning shake! This should be interesting!!!

 

T4R

 

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Weekend Fun!

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Yep, this is how it all started Friday morning. For a crazed freezer meal mom like me, this is horrifying. But don’t you fret with some help from my mama dinner was delicious and everyone was fed all weekend! I am still totally lost without my crock pot, I may have shed a tear 😦 

Friday night I tried my first ever cycling class with my sister and her friend!!!

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That shit was intense. I totally thought because of my running that my lower body would be able to handle it. OOOOHHHH was i wrong. Barely kept up the instructor (who was a nut) Definitely motivated to keep trying till I am able to keep up with her so y’all can call me a nut! I am seriously contemplating a gym membership. I am looking into LA Fitness because of their classes and child care. Really want to challenge myself more and without having to wait for a babysitter I could go to the gym 3-4 times a week and still get my long run in on the weekend when the hubbers is home. So if i do get the membership you know you will be hearing more about these classes!! I felt great after the class!! Like my lovely sister said after the class “I feel so alive”!!! It’s so true, I just felt good and then I crashed! lol

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Saturday was a much needed relaxing day! Massage with my best friend!!!

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You know that shit was good when you look like this at the end!! The scalp massage at the end is to die for. Should make this a regular thing. Maybe with all these groupon deals now we can!! Met up with another friend at Blue Sage for lunch/dinner. Blue sage is a BYOB vegetarian restaurant in South Hampton. The food was excellent and I was surprisingly full afterwards!! Didn’t stop us from doing this

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Key lime pie split three ways I swear!!!

Had a great day with my girlfriends!!! You totally forget what a nice day out feels like once you’re a mom. Its good to have a lil reminder. Thanks Ladies

 

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Saint Patrick’s day was filled with a lot of green and Irish potato making!!! Got to spend the day with my little monsters! 

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But they sure are cute! Can’t get enough of these guys…..Literally I take like 20 pictures a day and Instagram them! So the weekend ended with a night out with the hubbers! He seems to think St Patty’s day is his day! I’m pretty sure he celebrates it more than his birthday. We had fun!

Here’s to  Patty’s Day

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T4R (Thanks for reading)

 

P.S. Gonna start doing Wellness Wednesday which will be my weigh in day and I’m starting a clean eating cleanse tomorrow. More info will be up tomorrow! 

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Throwback Thursday: Lets take a look at my past weight loss attempts!!!

Hello All!

In honor of throwback Thursday I am going to try to explain my history with weight loss. As a child I would say I was a healthy weight. Exhibit A (i know, pretty damn cute too)

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I was always the tallest in my class but not overly heavy. It wasn’t until 5 grade that i remember being significantly heavier. Of course i don’t have that picture, lol….when I find it I promise to post it (ummm maybe) I joined weight watchers in middle school and lost 30 lbs. I remember coming back from summer break and people didn’t even recognize me. It was a great feeling. During high school I remember being up and down again.

Exhibit B

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One of my heaviest moments was first year of college. You know freshman 15 or in my case freshman 25. 

Exhibit C

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After another weight watchers attempt, I found myself at my lowest adult weight when I studied abroad in Italy my junior year in college. Now mind you, we walked EVERYWHERE and barely ate because we couldn’t speak Italian and didn’t know what the hell we were doing. It was a great experience, I swear! 

Exhibit D

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I really wish I would have stuck to healthier eating at that point. I had to of shrunk my stomach during those three month, lol (only if i knew then what i know now).  Awwwwww I have many of those moments, don’t we all. Anyways, I was heavier at my wedding and than two kids came so you know what that means.

As you can see there is cycle. Loss, gain, loss, gain gain gain! I get to a point in my weight loss where I just go back to my old habits and get lazy. Right now would be that point in this attempt but this is not an attempt. I’m mainly focused on being all around healthier, to stay active and live a vibrant life.

Throughout my whole life, I have told myself I was just big boned and wasn’t suppose to be skinnier but that was just a mind f*ck. That was my excuse to not go farther in my weight loss and really commit to a healthy lifestyle. This time around I am more committed than I ever have been( Damn, I’m telling the world) and I’m more aware of my bad habits and thoughts. I am excited to loss more than I ever have in the past, learn more about myself, challenge my body and try new things. 

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T4R,

El

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Let me introduce myself :)

Hi there!

My name is Ellen. I am a stay a home mom of two who has been married for almost 5 years. You will hear me refer to my partner in crime as Pat or Patrick. I usually use Patrick when he is annoying me (just a heads up)!!! We have a 3 year old son, Kaine, and a 22 month old daughter, Phoebe. (yes a YIKES is in order)Image

This picture is from the beach last summer (2012). My children are my life. I live and breath everything toddler right now. Sippy cups, messy house, climbing on furniture, rambling conversations with my son, snuggling with sissy (what Kaine calls Phoebe) and of course POOH Bear! My kids are only 20 months apart so i was in baby stage for a good 2 years straight. I LOVE baby phase (hope to get to experience some more) but you really do lose yourself in the process because baby/babies come first. Once Phoebe turned 1 I felt like it was time for mama to get healthy. I read a pin on Pinterest (Oh yes, I’m obsessed with Pinterest and have a lot of “nailed it” moments) 

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This is the pin that got my attention. I wanted to be healthy and loss weight.  I needed to try something new, so I started running. I have never ran in my life and never thought I ever would. I found a highly recommended program online called C25K and got started the summer of the photo above. After graduating from the program, I ran three 5k in the fall. I’m extremely proud of myself and I’m so happy i choose to make a change. With the help of some wellness products from the company I am partnered with I have lost about 25lbs so far. This is far from the end of my journey, I still would like to loss another 30-40lbs and really tone up. My new found love for running really powers me through. In my chaotic life my run is my sanity. I still struggle with healthy eating and hope to use this blog to learn better habits, to share my ups and downs and maybe even help another along the way. 

 

Here are some warnings if you plan on following this blog:

I am a Pinterest addict

I am not ready to give up my coffee….one step at a time folks

I admire fashion but don’t always get to look the part

i am obsessed with Jillian Michaels

and yes I am a mother but I”m also human so don’t mind my crude manner at times.

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Thanks for reading!!!! Be Back Soon

 

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